Just whatever random thoughts that I get. A lot of it is media stuff, and there's a little social justice but not near enough for me to feel like I'm doing my part but I'm working on that! Also sometimes I feel depressed so there will be angst-filled posts as well sorry. I tend to go through stages with stuff, obsessing over it and then ignoring it for a while so deal with it. And um thanks for stopping by I guess?
Cisgendered, female, 19, somewhere between bi and pansexual (it's hard to explain), demisexual, polyamorous
AIM: Katrani Merack (might be registered on search as just Katrani or KatMerack)
i have a Stig poster and a Star Wars one now
i think my roommate might have a geekiness intervention xD
From my friend’s FB:
What I love most about SXU: RAINBOWS.RAINBOWS EVERYWHERE. (Double funny because its a Catholic university…hahaha) :D ♥
THEN WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY AND HOW DO I GET THEIR ATTENTION JDFBKJSADBF
Edit: I forgot about Good Friday but STILL. Shouldn’t they give us Monday off to? So that we don’t have to cut Easter stuff short?
-Oh hey Easter’s coming up!
-This is a Catholic university. Wonder if we get two days off?
-We have no class on that Friday but we do have class on the Monday after Easter.
-Meaning they open the dorms back up Sunday night.
-I’m gonna have trouble making that when I’m only 2 hours away because OH HEY I DON’T WANT TO SKIP OUT ON MY FAM.
-AND SOME PEOPLE LIVE SIX HOURS AWAY. POSSIBLY MORE.
-HOW THE FUCK DOES THIS MAKE SENSE
Oh, so you live in X Dorm?
Guess what! That’s the ONLY dorm that fully shuts off its A/C and/or doesn’t allow you to adjust the heating vents!
Also we don’t turn the A/C back on until there’s been three 60 degree+ NIGHTS in a row! What’s that you say? The days/late afternoons/eveningtime before night has reached 70 to 80 degrees so far this week? Well that’s at night is it? :D
Hey have any of my followers read Kant’s “On the Dynamically Sublime in Nature”? It’s part of a bigger thing called “Critique of Pure Judgement”.
This is extremely dense and I’m having trouble picking out what he would qualify as beautiful? (I need to compare to what Socrates says about a beautiful/good life in Crito.) I just really cannot seem to get through this. Been trying on and off for a week and it’s just not working. :/
So if anyone can help clear up what Kant says about things that are good/beautiful in that article, it would be a huge help for me!
Went to a shop called the Butcher and Larder because of a school thing today and SO GLAD I went because now I HAVE A SANDIWICH WITH ACTUAL MEAT THAT ISN’T PROCESSED ALL TO HELL.
Not only does my philosophy teacher know to apply the term “bromance” to Socrates and Crito but she’s also a Whovian (just reached Ten though)
AND she’s into all the literary magazine stuff so will be sending stuff my way there
AND she sponsors trips to the pedway
AND I’m pretty sure she’s going to be a troper (gave her the link)
AND she’s going to start watching Sherlock methinks (which I still need to finish)
When talking about caravans being raided, instead of using a word like “loot”, then went with “booty”. Then continued to use it. Four times. In the same paragraph.
Semi-kinda-sorta-philosophical stuff ahead that might seem really obvious. Feel free to ignore this!
So in one of my classes today we were talking about pornography and how, in general, porn that focuses on the act is geared towards men while stuff with plotlines (or emotional investment opportunities) is geared towards women. Basically, men want the physical and women want the emotional in the industry’s view.
(Course that’s just a general observation that I can’t speak to the truth of and that scenario isn’t the point, just the lead in so please forgive me if that’s wrong)
So I started thinking that what if it’s only like that because it’s made like that? By targeting a certain thing towards a certain demographic, you’re creating that demographic and separating them from others.
So, for instance, the Transformers shows are made for boys who like vehicles, robots, and fighting. Before the show started, they were just boys, some of whom liked vehicles, some liked robots, some liked fighting, and some liked any combination of the three. Once the show started, those boys were lumped into a group together and became a demographic.
Basically, a target doesn’t exist until it is targeted. You don’t need a target, you make one out of existing objects. Kind of a chicken and egg thing, too.
And then I started thinking, well, a lot of media is geared towards men in general. Even stuff supposedly for women has a fuckton of fanservice intended for straight males (but that appeals to lesbians and others who are attracted to female bodies).
I know a lot of people claim that they were born with a sexuality, but I don’t think that’s right. I definitely don’t think it’s a choice, because who would choose a lifestyle that leads to them getting persecuted so severely? But I think it’s something that develops instead of just being there from birth.
At least for me, I saw a lot of images that showed the desirability that’s supposedly inherent in the female form. Advertising, sci-fi shows that I watched with my dad, more movies than I can count. Even if otherwise they were family-friendly, there’s a lot of fanservice made of showing off the women in those media.
Because of that, I developed a sense of the female form as beautiful, but not something to be attained. It’s something that exists and is desirable but not for me to mold myself to- I need to seek it out in others. At the same time, I absorbed the “fact” that, as a woman, I should desire men.
It’s something I can’t get rid of, because it’s something I’ve been exposed to after years and it’s just as much a part of me as my need for closeness with people or helping friends in need or always checking if snow from a recent storm is good packing snow.
So yeah. I wonder if anyone has anything from someone looking into if sexuality is something that develops instead of something that just is?
So I’m taking a classed called Sex, Gender, and Society this semester.
The obligatory in-class “look back on this later to see how far you’ve come” assignment for the first day was come up with a definition of sex.
Any act done by one or more beings to cause the stimulation of genitals, so long as it has the consent of all involved and all involved have knowledge that it is a stimulating act for one or more participants. An emotional connection is not required.
I actually really like this definition, considering we had like 3 minutes. I think that it’s as inclusive as possible.
Anyone want to throw in their two cents?
-Read one of the dialogues
-Skimmed first two chapters of history book which just covers a more focused version of prehistory stuff. Teacher will barely touch on it anyways.